It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

2012-02-11T09:00:00.000-08:00

2nd last night before crit..and I'm here in my bedroom busy completing my model...guess there's no sleep today.

Yesterday went Macritchie with friend to do an experiment with the monkeys(ikr) lol and in some point of time Qingran fell into the drain and had a puncture wound. Poor her...After that we sent her to Mt Alvernia Hospital and she had to have some stitches for her wound.

I got kind of strange feeling because a few days ago I was telling her that sleeping late is no good because its very dangerous especially when we are crossing the road and not alert, and now this happened, albeit in a different scenario. Hmm...And this caused me to be more apprehensive about sleeping late and kinda scared in some ways lol.

So yea..I guess despite all the stress we put on ourselves for school and the importance we place on them, health and ourselves still come first. Love yourself before doing any other thing right.

Tomorrow gonna be the real busy night because I need to rush finish 9 drawings if not wrong. Sigh...Sometimes I really wish that my life weren't like this. Sometimes.

Grumpy mode.

I need to feel it - intense, overwhelming, strongly

Else its just nothing.

Maybe its just me. But this is just me.

Needa release whatever stress

2012-02-10T08:10:00.001-08:00

Saw this on facebook few moment ago (just a slight break from model making ok? )

" 一个男孩子干干净净，头发不染不烫，衣着不过分追求，爱运动爱游戏，健康开朗大方。便足以让人喜欢。 "

Hmm...this is exactly my guo jun..like exactly...everything describes him haha <3

2012-02-08T05:13:00.000-08:00

Yup...its right..Time to stop because its the best to...:)

2012-02-03T07:34:00.000-08:00

https://apps.facebook.com/sgflyerloveair/individual.php?vtype=ml&id=169

Guys! Please click in the link and help to vote for our photo as we are taking part in Singapore Flyer Love is in the air contest!

Actually we don't intend to win as we just want to create beautiful memories together...but still please help to support us and we'll take it as blessings haha thanks alotttt!! ! :)

Anyway, valentine's day is coming..hmm...

Really want the special him to know that I treasure him a lot, a lot and a lot. If there is anything he wants and its within my means, I'll stop whatever I'm doing and do everything to give it to him. I know I'm not perfect, but I'll love him with all my heart and bring out my best when I'm with him. Nobody's know what's going to happen tomorrow, but I know that all I want is to build a beautiful tomorrow with him, live together happily in our beautiful home with our children, travel around the world and grow old together.

Love's never too late. Maybe I've met too many bad guys in the past and now when the right one comes, somehow there is this special feeling that I never had before telling me that he is the right one that I'm going to spend my life with forever. :) I think this feeling can't really be describe in exact words.

So baby dear, have you been reading this diary of mine? :) I love you, your boyish and straight - forward nature, your sweet, soft and expressive and emotionally intertwined self, your handsome face and sweetest smile for me. I love it all <3 You make my life complete!

2012-02-01T04:55:00.000-08:00

Cuz baby you're my everything

You're all I ever wanted

We can do it real big

Bigger than you ever done it

You be up on everything

I want this forever I swear

I can spend whatever on it

2012-02-01T04:54:00.002-08:00

Kinda getting to my limits already..

Sigh...

2012-01-27T11:32:00.000-08:00

Finally worked out all the proper dimensions for my small 30 square meters retreat after like really really long! Its quite hard to visualize how it looks like in reality and I actually had to search for my T square for reference. Haha, imagine me swinging it around, in the air and everywhere to get a gauge of how much area is sufficient for a walkway!

Just realized that a small isn't easy as we expected too, its so squeezy and every space is precious so we have to think twice or even thrice about the orientation and etc. Aki isn't only about decoration of the place, its about how everything falls nicely place together too.

Yup everything is finally in place now and work's gonna be much much smoother. Thank goddd.

Gonna sleep now, tomorrow is a long day for me but a happy one. :)

2012-01-26T20:32:00.001-08:00

Feeling super upset now. Maybe you refuse to believe, but the truth is I always put your feelings before mine.

Needa go out for a break now.

2012-01-26T07:42:00.000-08:00

Actually posted for two times, but decided to delete them.

Silence is the best remedy. Just upset.

2012-01-25T09:22:00.001-08:00

Been experiencing insomnia these few nights and only to feel extremely tired the morning after.

Anyway that aside, I can't seem to open the site analysis file on ivle for my site cause I need the information for the sun path and direction of shadow etc to decide the orientation of my retreat.

Sigh just a few rants.

Made many sketches but can't decide which to present. I guess I still don't really what I want to show the most. Sometimes making a choice is a chore too when you have no idea which one is the best and therefore which to chose. Choosing with intuition maybe be proven wrong later too and time will be wasted. There's no choice though. Hope I'll gain better insights after consulting my tutor tomorrow!

This is my kinda dream house anyway. White and elegant and a nice pool! :)

Chinese new year 2012 thoughts

2012-01-25T08:06:00.000-08:00

Suppp!!!

Happy Chinese New Year guys! :) Hope all of you had a really nice one and collected lots of ang paos! Well the sum collected doesn't matter, its the meaning and the blessing given behind that matters the most yea.

CNY was just as usual for me, but I kinda felt something's gone or missing. Hmm...am still wondering what exactly is it. And sadly, my beloved grandma is growing old and her hair are turning even whiter, like snow - white. Its not only her but my grandparents from my paternal side too. Time flies and without realizing I'm going to be 20 years old soon this year. Although I always visit them weekly and spend even more time with them than some of my cousins, I still find it not enough.

At some point of the week, they are alone and bored at home with no one to talk to, especially my maternal grandmother who I call her my "wai po" because my grandfather had already passed away 8 years ago. If I could, I would really want to come and accompany when she's alone and talk to her. Although she would probably tell me the same thing again and again as usual, at least she know that someone cared and thought about her albeit their busy schedule. But sadly, I'm filled with school during the week days and the most I could afford is dropping her a call during the day and ask what she is doing right now. Haha, I felt happy when I hear the happiness from her voice in the phone too.

So yup, treasure the people around you, especially your grandparents, don't only remember them when you need help or during cny cause that's atrocious. Life's isn't all about achievements in school or cca or in career, its about your family and friends too. So take and spare some of your time for what's important yea.

So ciaos. :)

Happy Luner New Year

2012-01-22T08:40:00.000-08:00

Happy lunar new year guys.

Happy 6th months to my baby guo jun. :)

2012-01-22T01:27:00.001-08:00

At times we was off I was scared to show youNow I wanna hold you until I can’t hold youWithout you, everything seems strangeYour name is forever planted in my brain

2012-01-22T01:13:00.000-08:00

Just the thoughts, is it that difficult? Sometimes I give in too much, people forgot that I have my own desires, my own expectations, my own dreams.

When I give up mine to satisfy others, somehow theirs became more important than mine.

Sigh.

2012-01-22T01:04:00.001-08:00

Need connectivity with the heart.

2012-01-21T06:23:00.000-08:00

幻想中的爱情永远比现实美, 但现实的爱才是最实在的.

幸福就是把握现在, 跟我所爱的人永远在一起. :)

For all you girls out there :)

2012-01-21T05:48:00.000-08:00

A sweet video about how each and every girl is unique and beautiful. It shares my point too that every girl is beautiful in their own ways. I guess one point or more in our life, we feel insecure here and there, but sometimes things are actually better than we thought. :)

And girls, I believe that every girl has their own prince charming that appreciate her totally as she is, hidden or not, so yea he's right, somehow this person will come one day if he has not.

So yea,do watch yea...sweet video. Enjoy~ :)

2012-01-20T08:45:00.001-08:00

我每天都很想你

2012-01-19T20:27:00.001-08:00

Cute puppy...*cuddles*

2012-01-19T20:23:00.002-08:00

2012-01-19T20:23:00.001-08:00

Kitty says " Help me up pleaseeee "

2012-01-19T20:21:00.001-08:00

2012-01-19T20:12:00.000-08:00

Where's my soul - keeper

2012-01-18T06:58:00.001-08:00

True love is never perfect. Its falling down and getting back up together.

You and I we're meant to be and you're my destiny.

And I promise I will never ever let you go. :)

2012-01-17T09:36:00.000-08:00

I know I'm not pretty like the other girls, non as slim as the others and before since I'm growing fat, but I can give my heart full of love. :)

2012-01-16T16:21:00.002-08:00

What I was always waiting for is a love worth dying.

2012-01-15T07:09:00.000-08:00

Find myself missing guojun almost every night after he slept...cause he's a early sleeper while I'm the nocturnal one somehow haha... Trying to change my habits though cause its not healthy.

So yea...just wanted to share some private photos of us before I go and finish up my work...enjoy :)

One of the first few photos we've taken together :)

Timeless promise.

My sweet darling and my sunshine who never fails to shine upon me.

First time taking a photo together with my phone. <3

My hungry boy at Nanxiang steam bun restaurant :P The Chinese food there is really delicious and makes me salivate every single time.

:) His face is smaller now because of all the work out, but I miss this more fleshy version :D

How he cheers me up whenever I'm away and feels upset.

Yup...by updating me about adorable xuan and this makes me really happy every time without fail haha. <3

Everyday I think about how awesome my boyfriend is and how lucky I am to be here with him. :)

2012-01-15T05:58:00.000-08:00

I always wanted to remain hopeful until the last minute, but somehow I'm always disappointed.

Hope that one day someone can break this spell for me.

2012-01-12T07:31:00.000-08:00

Don't keep saying those petty words, cause they disclosed your decreasing mental age and makes me despise you.

Just mind your own business, appreciate things more, read more and discover whats truly beautiful in this world alright? Cause it seems that you lack that self enlightenment. When you have achieve that, then you will understand more. :)

2012-01-11T08:58:00.001-08:00

Posted by my senior on fb and its a video when my squad and I RODed in 2008 from NPCC! A lot of snippets of our times tgt in the unit and precious unglam photos when we were young. LOL! But its really a beautiful memory and I still love my squad alot although we are like separated now and we have not seen each other for ages. Enjoy!!! Anw my squad is the extremist squad so look out for us inside! :D

I have to say that most of my happy times in 2004 to 2008 was spent with these people and I treasure that fact that we have met together as squad mates. Still remember all the cheers we did together when we were young and I still believe in them although they may sound funny now from the video haha. I really miss the times when I thought I was superwoman and was daring to do and try anything with my squad mates, thinking that everything will be alright. I guess that's youth, the abundance of energy and risk - taking. :)

Good night sweeties and school's been tiring so far but still fulfilling :)

2012-01-08T08:42:00.000-08:00

It's officially the start of school tomorrow! * yayyyy!:D* ( Depress mode)

Haha, but its just a phase that we all have to go through and yea we will emerge stronger and wiser hopefully!

Hmm...Its the last few moments of the holidays...Really had a great one and so much that I thought school's not gonna come anymore!

I know its repetitive but I'm just going to say again that I miss guojun. And the fact that I'm not going to see him as often when school reopens again makes me really upset, but we'll make time for sure. :)

New studio, new school term, new modules, new tutor and all ready for a great new start.

* Challenge accepted *

doggie loveee

2012-01-06T09:15:00.001-08:00

2012-01-06T08:41:00.000-08:00

aww...sweet daddy :) <3

2012-01-06T07:53:00.001-08:00

Feel very blessed to be with you. :)

I love you guojun. <3

Forever and ever.

2012-01-05T08:20:00.001-08:00

aww... :') bestfriends

2012-01-05T01:20:00.000-08:00

生日快乐。

2012-01-05T01:04:00.000-08:00

its one to one exchange. zero loopholes

2012-01-04T10:21:00.000-08:00

haha exactly for my guojun:)

Thats true for my handsome papa tan <3

Lol really happened several times when I was feeling sleepy! Especially the glaring light from mobile in the dark too! :p

Yes dad! <3

Thats all for tonight guys haha good night ~

2:37am 5/1/2012

2012-01-04T00:05:00.000-08:00

Thought that if I don't think about it, the problem will never come,but it did came. Trying to think of solution, but I don't know how other than supporting with my limited abilities.

2012-01-03T18:32:00.000-08:00

2012-01-02T08:11:00.000-08:00

Another day have passed just like this, just like any other day...

Holiday seemed to be formed by multiples of many identical days...but it ain't bad too.. :) Peacefulness don't always come easily.

Now I'm dreading the start of school, like always haha... But then they say you must always face your fear instead of fearing and that, I have some difficulty doing it.

So I asked myself what exactly am I fearing and maybe ten years later when I looked back I would most probably laugh it off. Hmm..guess what I fear is the rigor of the design module and the amount of commitment I have to put in...my sleep, my time with my loved ones, my leisure and etc. But I understand its the process and its all worth it if it turned out well eventually..all I can do now is to just do my best and not think too much! Cause I realized I have strong inclination towards over - thinking.

This holiday had been a well spent one. Did alot of things that I really wanna do and feel very satisfied. I must thank the people who did all these things with me too. Tomorrow I'm going to do something with baby and after doing that I feel I'm ready for school haha! :p

Alright, shall end here tonight and sleep early to conserve energy for tomorrow. Ciao ~

2011-12-30T09:23:00.000-08:00

Its the last day of 2011 today..

hmm...just wish to do a quick and simple post...

2011 has flied past before me..so many things happened..so many things changed too...for the better I feel :)

Its a fun and exciting year for me filled with work! I think this is the most serious year for me haha...

I'm enlightened several times throughout this year by many things..so unhappy things and some happy things..

In 2011, I've grown more mature, more understanding, more appreciative, less impatient, less enclosed and of course a happier person.

Most of all I've found my true love. :)

In the end of 2010, I wished that everyone would be happy in 2011. I did and I hope everyone have their share of happiness too haha.

This year I shall be tiny bit more greedy hehe and here is my resolution and wishes for 2012:

1. To be a more disciplined architecture student and manages my academics and private life well.

2. To be happy and find meaning in things that I do.

3. Stay confident in myself and do not stray from the original path

4. Go crazy and have fun sometimes

5. Don't think too much and just do it

6. Family and friend to be well, happy and healthy.

7. Spend time with my guojun and spent more quality time with him even when I'm really busy with aki work.

8. Spend all the special days in 2012 with my guojun.

9. Love guojun with my all in 2012.

10. Love Guojun with my all for the rest of my life. :D

11. Together with guojun forever. <3

Okay the last five basically sums up my main focus and priority in 2011 and of course in 2012 and in future too! :p

Happy new year guys! Have an enjoyable one! And baby I love youuuuuuu <3

2011-12-29T07:19:00.000-08:00

When you love someone true heartedly, you'll naturally accept the person as he/she is, including all the flaws, turning everything once ugly to beautiful. And willingly without grudges.

Before achieving this, its not true love.

Compromise, forgive, give in and lastly shower all your love. :)

2011-12-28T21:10:00.000-08:00

woke up and feeling as dead as ever.

baby baby baby

2011-12-28T08:24:00.001-08:00

Okay enough of the madness..

today is really the most draining day in my whole life..

when I felt so hell-like helpless, so speechless, so...just so helpless..

I have no strength to stop.

Now I'm still feel the aftermath of the episode just now..

its just too real and too shocking that I can't possibly recover right away..I'm not that kind that can turn a blind eye to whats so obvious to me..

Feel so tired and am having a headache now.

I think I really need give myself a small break and some space for thinking too..

thought that I was going mad just now, don't even know why I have such a big reaction.

yea I have a lot of emotions but that's all because I care about someone, alot alot and alot. So much that I thought I would die if I love even more. I'm not even lying in any one bit and so god damn serious today in my whole life. I don't give any shit to anything else in reality but give my all to the most precious thing to me, and that's him. I can give everything I can to him and do whatever I can to make things right, as long as he is happy. I love you, love you you and love you. Never love someone so much or regard anyone so importantly before.

Today is really too much for me somehow although everything is fine now. I really cannot recover..although I feel much better now..thought my heart stopped thumping just now. Sigh.

Pardon my eccentricity now and let the pictures do the talking k? I think I need my own way of releasing too. :)

Actually I think I buy this quote lol..

Buy this too haha actually I tell myself all the time...

I think I've lost this desirable attitude.

Yea..including those friends that remember the same way yea...things remembered by heart are always the truest.

lol true!!! but not this obvious but more subtle lol!!

yea somehow I believed this crap for so many years and keep getting myself hurt.

yea that's me most of the time lol. Yes I don't give a f***! so scam you all scumbags

goes on and on and on

yes thats why I'm here! :D really regret every morning haha

Aww...me too...

Think sensibly thats the most important thing. :)

hmm yea...sometimes we have to be strong to make it through yea

think I'm feeling much better...hmm..yup must cheer up! cause life is still good! I just have to tweak my mentality..just feel kinda upset somehow..

Sometimes I find myself struggling with what I should do and what I feel happy with. But ...there is always no answer. I just can't get out of it.

I know that's all just foolishness.

Drunk in my own thoughts and I keep rewind and rewind.

Since the rain is falling, I think I might fall as well.

somethings...I've learnt that not thinking is the best..

but when we close our eyes, we do not see but what we don't see is always there.

The fact is I do know what I need know... am grateful for that.

shall force myself to sleep now... I should let myself rest too..:)

Good night everyone. :)

2011-12-28T07:19:00.000-08:00

Really love you alot...hope you can feel it.... :)

2011-12-26T07:41:00.000-08:00

Its class outing today with my beloved 6p at playnation at scape in town today! :D

Haha, its a recent trend that there are more and more boys attending class outings than girls. Lol, nonetheless the outing was as heartwarming and fun as last time as all of them are still as silly and crazy as last time. It's always nice to hang out with old friends.

Played a series of board games which previously I have zero interest in at all haha! Actually they're quite fun if the people playing are enthusiastic into playin it. Its all dependent on whether the players want to make it fun or not. Haha and we had dinner at lerk thai at centrepoint later on which I do not think is very nice. Hmm..finally took a class photo at somerset too before edwin and kunhong left! Lol, realised that most of my closer friends actually don't really like to take alot photos haha! Buts thats something cute about them too :D

After that they went to watch movie but I went home instead because I was really tired (since I slept at 4am the previous night playing my favourite game "bejewelled") and baby was waiting to send me home :)

Aww and baby bought me some accessories from Aldo and Forever twenty one which I love alot! Can't imagine him going into the store and picked these for me :)) And Zou yi told me that New Look's shoes are like on sale now! Feel like buying although I've just bought a pair yesterday with baby. But beautiful things are always hard to resist ain't it? :)

Took some photos today at the outing but I accidentally left my phone with baby just now since it was out of batt. :( Shall upload them when I get the phone back tomorrow!

And tomorrow I'm going to support baby at his match at NTU! Its the inter faculty basketball game I think lol. I don't really know much about basketball but I just like to see him play in a match. :)

Alright gonna sleep! So goodnight! :)

2011-12-24T22:12:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas guys :)

a song that I really like and many of 2NE1 songs once described what I was feeling at some down points in my life haha.

Its christmas with my love this year! :D

2011-12-24T10:27:00.001-08:00

2011-12-24T10:25:00.000-08:00

aww..I've always love Sirius Black :) Didn't know this side of him haha

2011-12-24T10:21:00.000-08:00

Hmm...maybe its true sometimes that not everything works out

2011-12-24T10:19:00.003-08:00

Yep! Superbass ~

2011-12-24T10:17:00.001-08:00

2011-12-24T10:12:00.001-08:00

True that.. sad smile

2011-12-23T21:39:00.000-08:00

Got food poisoning few days before Christmas...its the worst experience so far in my life...never vomited so much and felt so much fear.

Woke up in the midnight to take my medicine and fainted for a few moment and suddenly I felt a sharp pain in my head and somehow collapsed onto the floor while my vision slowly disappeared in front of me gradually. I could feel my mum and dad slapping my face and screaming asking me whats wrong, my mum even cried,but I was unable to respond at all. Think I was dehydrated from all the vomiting that time but the fear was real and silent. Felt so scared and helpless in my heart for that few seconds when my world slowly became black and was really afriad that I will just die like that. Sounds exaggerating but yea I don't really care cause that's what I really felt.

I've never felt so happy and glad to see my parents ever when I came back to my senses again. That night my mum didn't sleep at all but stayed by my side in my room the whole night and took care of me, feeding me water and food. I think I'm her baby girl all along even though I'm already 19 now. My mum and family is really the people that love me the most in this whole world since I was born and I promise that I want to take care of her and dad when they grows old too. Poor guojun also kept rushing to my house to take care of me although he is feeling kinda sick now too, thanks baby. :)After this episode, I realised who really love me and care about me, I feel very love and grateful. :)

Its christmas tomorrow. Stay happy everyone and cheers! Had a really nice gathering with ex colleagues yesterday with weiqi, irene, sheena, glady and joy. A pity that kelly didnt come cause I miss her too. Yesterday was kinda tiring for me as I had just recovered and I had to spend the whole day out since I have tuition in the morning with connie too and its my 5th month anniversary with baby :)

2011 have past in a flash for me, without all the studying, but alot of work haha. But it had been a really nice year for me too as I've have discovered many things,for example my real interest, my true personality, my working capacity, many pleasures and interests other than studies haha :p of course made friends with alot of nice people outside of RV but older people from work and from my new school in NUS and aki.Of course, I remember my old friends too and still treasures them tremendously. :) Most of all, I've found the special person that I feel that he is worth my trust, my love and my whole world. He is the best gift that I'm given this christmas, this year and for my whole life.:) He is just so fine and perfect for me. Really, I'm sincerely saying that. There's no one better than him in this whole world for me. Happy 5th month baby, loves xoxo.

And I'm here wishing everyone well this christmas and new year :) Have a good one and enjoy them with the people that you love yea. Hope everyone will do well in their own realm of work and find sense of fulfillment. This is a joyful season and I'm really dreading the start of school I swear haha! :p 8th Jan don't come please!!

2011-12-20T07:41:00.000-08:00

我不是女超人

可是为什么你说一句, 我就奋不顾身地往前冲?

2011-12-19T22:18:00.000-08:00

heavy heart..sigh

Not sure when I became so bothered...maybe its because I have someone I really wanna have a future with now.

No worries, I'll work hard and won't disappoint you! Thanks for your support dearie! Really appreciate it with all my heart!

2011-12-18T23:16:00.000-08:00

不懂你会不会看到,可是朋友不要伤心...
没有在一起就是她不属于你,而属于你的人还在等待着你
希望你早点走出阴霾 :)

2011-12-16T09:54:00.000-08:00

"When you don't give up..You cannot fail"

Such inspiring quote..
I remember the times when we were young, we believed these quotes so wholeheartedly. We believed that if we put in hard work and as times goes by, we will succeed and become what we want to be. So we followed what our parents said and results turned out well as we had expected.A child starts everything afresh and takes in as it is I guess. Life was pure and we just believed.

However as we grow older and with more experience, we realized that there are a lot easier way out for us. That we can do well even if we don't work so hard..so we stopped working that hard and settle for the substandard.Our faith swayed abit and we slacked abit. Temptations like smoking,drinking and etc comes in after that it affect our performance and our determination to do better that what we can achieve. We sort of lost the motivation to work hard and do better due to some many reasons. But actually, the reason is always there just that we self conciously made it invisible.

On a side note,its just reported on the news that more and more young people are beginning to pick smoking up as a bad habit. There are several of my friends who smokes too, even at my age. Just a question, why do people smoke? To me, its just a silly or even stupid habit. It may look cool to some people, but hey it only look cool to people who like to smoke too. Its not even cheap, so you are actually using your parents hard earned money or your own hard earned money for your own smelly pleasure. So are you that freaking rich to spend money to harm your own body and what about the medical fees after that? Its not only about the money, its about the body too. Why on earth would you want to spend money to harm your own body which your mum has been worrying for and bought so much good food and tonics to ensure that you're healthy since you were born? Sometimes, just use your brain to think. You think its cool, its stress relieving, that when you heave in or immerse yourself in a cloud of smoke you feel your burden and stress being lifted off or you're in heaven, actually you're not, you're still right there and your problem is still there. Maybe you're just relieved a bit in your head, but that's just it. Truth is you're just not self disciplined enough to kick this bad habit and you let it rule your life, worse if you have been smoking for more than five years and if you're old now. Cause its means you're still silly enough to not realized the hurt it cost,or if you did, stupid enough to find tons of excuses to continue smoking. There are actually lots more activities that you can do with the money that you have spent on cigarettes all these years..like investing, saving up for your family, buying a book or dress that you really like, or dental products for your teeth that are yellowing. Just..wake up all you smokers. Don't allow yourself to smoke or do other harmful things just because the society now encourages you to do so or increased the ease for you to do so. Find your own directions and ask yourself what you want to be or what you want your children to see you as in future. And seriously, why do people my age suddenly start smoking or have sudden interest in smoking when they are reaching 18 or enters the army? Just because the law allows you or because many ppl are doing it around you? Then ain't it doing it fora purpose? To show that you've grown up or to look cool to be accepted? The true cool people are cool in their own ways that they know what they want for themselves and take ownership of their own beings.

Back to the topic.Yea I feel that the people in our generation especially those our age or younger lacks the motivation to work hard because life is too good for them to truely comprehend the importance of working harder. Why work hard if you can already life well when your parents can support you? Why stay up night or spend time in the library to research on things that you are interested in when you can be watching dramas or drinking and party all night with your friends in a club. The reason why I have sudden urge to write such a long post today is because I feel that more and more people, especially those in my generation or younger are losing the drive to succeed due to the comfort of their environment. We become so overwhelmed by things that are of not that much value to our life like k pop, games, drinking and etc, except of the entertainment part.

Just hope that we can ask ourselves once again, what is our dream? 人因梦想而伟大. Dreams are like guiding principles of our life. Without it, our life will have no purpose. What do you live for? Its the same old saying but determination and perseverance is the key to success. So where's your motivation today and does what you did today have any purpose? Its time to reflect as we are all growing old everyday. Life's short and don't waste it.

I admit I've may not been the best student ever or the best in whatever I do in my whole life, but I really do respect people who knows what they want and go all out to achieve it. Now I know I want to be an architect. Although I've complained in sem 1 about the tremendous hardwork and time that we have to dedicate to it and I think I'll still be complaining about it in future because its seriously not easy, but fromnow on I'm going to adopt this quote "When you don't give up..You cannot fail" Guess I must put in more hard work next sem and give myself the strength to embrace it!

Yep, Just go for it, its seriously that simple. Don't bullshit your way through and just go for it. Its hard but many things in life are hard too and that's where the joy come from when you have accomplished it. If you still don't have a dream today, its time to start thinking. Quit all your bad habits and settle down. Time leaves no one for regrets. Dreams doesn't have to be big I guess, you just gonna start small and be sincere about fulfilling it. It doesn't matter the age too.

Well, I guess this gonna be my end of year message for you guys this year lol. I hope all of you will learn some lessons and your mistakes along the way because after that you will know what you truely want. Find purpose in your life and quit doing useless things aiks. Feeling so angsty now but I think what I've said is reasonable lol.

Alright remember the quote, anyway its not by me. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone! All these are written with a sincere heart that everyone can become a better and a truely happier person and hope you can understand the meaning behind. ^^ Cheers!

2011-12-14T01:04:00.000-08:00

Maybe we are all staring at the same thing, but with different dreams.

Ignorance, Naive, tiny bit of innocence.

2011-12-13T19:02:00.000-08:00

Hais...feeling upset..but then its the inevitable.. sigh

yup suck it up winnie.

2011-12-13T00:01:00.000-08:00

Christmas is coming! Time for celebration again! Sigh hope to be able to meet up with my 6P soon, cause havn meet up with them for very long! But seems like the response on facebook isnt that good although quite a few responded! thanks guys who did! just upset that it isn't full house haha. Still love my class alot and treasure our friendships no matter what! :D

Like the warmth and coziness in this picture.The cat in the red santa costume somemore reminds me of xuan xuan! :3

2011-12-12T23:46:00.000-08:00

I'm going to dress my daughters like this next time and bring them tothe beach haha!

2011-12-12T23:45:00.000-08:00

True that. Nobody said that its gonna be easy, but its worth it.

2011-12-12T23:39:00.000-08:00

And I know that its love because.

2011-12-09T22:54:00.001-08:00

When you had the best, you won't want anyone else.

You're the best I can ever have. :)

2011-12-08T21:51:00.000-08:00

Sigh, looking at all the old photos makes me nolstagic.

Its not that I've stopped caring about you, its just that you stop caring and thus,I forced myself to do the same, when in fact I'm still the same, while you've changed.

2011-12-06T09:01:00.000-08:00

忽然很想说...

虽然我总是为了一些小细节,笨头笨脑的惹些不必要的麻烦给你,然后你会帮我收拾残局,町拧我许多...

你不提, 我也没说但我知道都是因为你要我过得好, 所以每当你又习惯地提醒我每个小事时,我总是哭笑不得,心里甜滋滋的. :)

真的很想永远都跟你在一起我的国俊. <3

2011-12-06T07:20:00.000-08:00

Note to self: Cheer up. Its nothing. Just ice yourself up.

2011-12-05T06:15:00.000-08:00

Yea...just go with the flow. :)

I think I should be happy with this..cause I don't care and knew it from the start.

2011-12-04T06:12:00.000-08:00

Recently, my mother instinct keep acting up because I've been interacting with a lot of children due to work and also babies from friends and relatives.

Its an open fact that I like children and my heart just go soft and melt every time I see them even if they make me mad haha. I like how they are so innocent, pure and adorable in their young selves. Ain't we're all like this before?

I remember the times when I was still young and growing up seems so faraway. I thought to myself that I can capture the feeling of youth and stay at that state forever. But as I grow up I realized feelings do change and one day what we feel will no longer be the same.

But haha no point thinking too much! Life's good.

Love my guojun more and more each day! <3

2011-12-02T03:35:00.000-08:00

One day if I stop thinking about something, means it doesn't mean a thing to me anymore.

I'm glad you're nothing more but just a memory.

2011-12-02T02:22:00.000-08:00

Shall declare that my favourite korean band of all time would be Big Bang! Although I don't really listen to their songs now. But its like first love, everytime I listen to it, I suddenly remember its awesomeness again.

I love Taeyang and G dragon the most! Love da attitude yo

Here are some songs that I feel is the best from Big Bang:

1. Lies

2. Haru Haru

3. This Love

4. Tonight

* With orders okay!

Other than Big Bang, recently I have turned to new korean bands which I once thought were sub standard but turned out they were pretty good, at least for a few songs.

Bands like:

1. Shinee

2. 2NE1

3. Beast

4. Super Junior

5. TVXQ

6. Teentop

7. Tara

But Big bang is still the best~

Without Big Bang, Kpop would be like Singapore without Lee Kuan Yew, China without the CCP, Mediacorp without Zoetay haha!

Enjoy! :D

2011-11-28T08:39:00.001-08:00

Makes me think of the exact wall facing seat in AMK mos burger LMAO!

2011-11-28T08:26:00.000-08:00

LOL boys never understand

To live eternally

2011-11-28T08:04:00.000-08:00

"So Far Away" - Avenged Sevenfold

Never feared for anything
Never shamed but never free
A life to heal the broken heart with all that it could
Lived a life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could

Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

Plans of what our futures hold
Foolish lies of growing old
It seems we're so invincible
The truth is so cold

A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find a place in my mind

Where you can stay
You can stay away forever

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

Sleep tight, I'm not afraid
The ones that we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me
Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way
To live eternally

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I have so much to say but you're so far away

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong and urges rise
But I'll see you
When He lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands untied

So far away
And I need you to know
So far away
And I need you to, need you to know

2011-11-28T07:48:00.001-08:00

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost.

SEIZE THE DAY BY AVENGED SEVENFOLD

Question is: Sometimes at some point of time, we really do not know what is the right thing to do to seize it.

2011-11-28T07:44:00.001-08:00

A great architect is not made by way of a brain nearly so much as he is made by way of a cultivated, enriched heart.

FRANK LLOYD WRIGHT (VIA HOMEDESIGNING)

2011-11-28T06:32:00.000-08:00

I seriously don't feel like caring, but I can't. Sigh.

Recently, I keep having urge to go out for a walk in the midnight, when there's no one else and the air feels much cleaner. My mind feels much clearer like this.

Can I?

2011-11-27T08:32:00.000-08:00

For my dearest and sweetest boy Andy Low Kok Jun,

I really really miss you so muchhhhhhhhh!

Lots of love <3<3<3<3<3<3

Miss you!!! Ahhh!!!

2011-11-26T08:46:00.001-08:00

Sometimes detest can't be explain, no matter how much you try to reason it.

2011-11-24T07:55:00.001-08:00

' The monument is enigmatic. It cannot be intentionally created."

" The spaces defined by the members of the structure are as important as members."

Lets say the positive takeaway from the revision for history and theory of modern architecture. We learn a lot from history most of the time.

What I feel now is Architecture is really about spaces, simple as it is and also a concept difficult to grasp.

Architecture is all around us so what makes a good architect/ architecture?

We are constantly reading up on famous modernist architects like Mies van der rohe, Louis Kahn, Jun Watanabe and Le Corbusier, who all have their own set of principles and adhere to their respectively movement so are these neccessary good architecture that we should look up to and take inspirations from?

My take is that these architecture are indeed inspiring and significant in their ability to bring out the essence of their respectively movement, be it through the lines or composition of space, lightness, good representation of a movement, theory. But these theory aren't always suitable or 'good' inspiration for the modern context for the perception of what goodness is always changing, just like how new movements developed in history along with years. Taking inspiration from these buildings are merely adhering to existing rules and has limited breeding grounds for creativity.

For now, just open up and analyse more before any judgement can be made.

2011-11-24T06:11:00.000-08:00

Sigh..turbulent times

Guess I must work harder and harder.

Nothing will bring me down!!!

Nowadays I keep questioning myself for a lot of things and sometimes I ask myself why I question so much that insecurities often arise in me and left me so confused.

I guess its because I'm trying not to make any mistakes that I will regret when I look back in the next ten years. Life's short and time's fleeting past so ever quickly and before you can grasp it its already gone. Many things are still left unanswered in me but then I figured that its okay as long as I've dwelled with it before and tried to solve it. On the other hand, there are also somethings that have no need to be deal with rationality cause its irrational by nature, something like love and relationships, that's why our heart exercise their true ability isn't it? :) Life without emotion is just dull and oh so mundane, might as if don't live it.

Somethings are here to stay and perhaps I'm not really satisfied with some part of my life. But there's nothing perfect I guess and we all have to make do with it or even make the best out of it. That's what make up the process of life, living, dwelling. playing and working.

Sigh, many things to reflect and many changes to make. Just realized that the world isn't so naive and its quite complicated. Its okay. I'll be tougher. :) Just need determination and more considerations. Time to grow up and be more mature instead of a stubborn little girl anymore.

Last paper tomorrow, wish me all the luck okay?

Cheers to the holidays and Christmas day. :)

2011-11-22T08:26:00.000-08:00

太完美的东西我不喜欢

2011-11-22T02:51:00.000-08:00

回忆那么美因为我们都回不去,就算真的很想.

只能这样远远的回望,挣扎着不让它慢慢的随着时光温柔地凋卸.

2011-11-22T00:32:00.001-08:00

whew I've just solved some technological problem by my own! ^^ happy :D

okay back to my readings :p

2011-11-20T08:40:00.000-08:00

In My Arms - City Lights The Night ( sang by a pair of real couple by then )

every time that you cross my mind
i miss the feeling of your hand in mine
and the way you make me feel

every second that i think of you
is one more second that im missing you
smiling 'cause I know our love is true

I'm going under faster than I've ever sunk before
head over heels in love with a girl that I completely adore
and I cant honestly say that I'd want anything more than the boy
who's in my arms tonight

I love your ways

and i love your smile

it brings me joy at my saddest moments

without you girl things won't be the same

so stay forever

forever forever forever

and always

every time that you smile at me

it makes me feel we're meant to be

you make my heart skip a beat

Every second that i'm with you
Are moments I crave and always knew
You're the one through and through

Baby, Don't leave me
I need you and I cant
See myself with anyone else
for the rest of my life

Our love..forever.

2011-11-20T00:48:00.000-08:00

how I miss the citylights, the touch of the skylight.

and the way you stare at me that midnight, its like a picture framed in my mind.

a furious kick in my heart, when time comes just kiss me slowly.

2011-11-20T00:41:00.000-08:00

blasting the music against the background of the Sunday evening.

"why can't i breathe whenever i think about you..."

" why can't I speak whenever i talk abt you..."

life's short, just chillax and cut all the ugly parts always so that you can enjoy the maximum sweetness :)

don't wanna say too much anymore, cuz whats meant to happen will happen :)

2011-11-19T05:29:00.003-08:00

'study PF day" today! :D

lol bored

2011-11-18T09:40:00.000-08:00

因为当时真的很真心的, 所以不想破坏那美好

也因为知道将来我无能承受那事实骗自己很开心

有时, 不完美的掩饰其实会很伤, 可是至少没有那么痛而我们都各自找到了属于我们的位子,回到了原点. 这样不是很好吗? 这也不是一开使就是你的想法吗?

到了最后我还是不懂, 或许我永远都不会懂.

就在这里化下句点吧.

我知道现在的我很快乐,你也很快乐,那就够了.

2011-11-18T07:44:00.001-08:00

I really think my boyfriend is super awesome ;)

2011-11-18T06:45:00.000-08:00

Today is friday!

TGIF :D

But gonna study for my papers next week haha, but friday gonna be the end of everything and holidays!! :D

Think I'm going to the library tomorrow again.

Can't wait for everything to end.

Cheers guys :) and all the best to everyone with their exams coming.

Anyway I've been planning to do something :p but hope it'll work out before I announce it so its a secret for now! Guess I'll have to wait till the holidays before I have the time haha. :)

2011-11-16T03:18:00.000-08:00

Taking a break from all the drawings and modeling crap that I have to hand in tomorrow.

Of course my drawings are not crap, I refer to the crappy process haha.

Spent the night yesterday at the workshop filing, burning my styroform and cutting them with some deadly machines I have phobia of with baby haha. Needed thank him for all the help hehe.

Just have to say that my work may not be the best of everyone's work, but its the best that I can give. At times like this when time is short, its easy to give up and say " I'm going to stop doing this." and leave forever perhaps. Yes its tough, but I guess leaving is always the better way out while staying needs more courage.

Since I've chose this myself I'll have to undertake whatever that comes :) So all the best everyone! After tmr 9:30am I'll be free from all the modeling n drawings and have to focus on my exams instead :)

So bye!

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUM!

You are the most beautiful woman in this world and the person I love the most! <3

2011-11-14T10:16:00.001-08:00

Cold, quiet and lonely night.

Filled with chaos in my head.

How I wish someone can just untangle them for me to save me from all these pain.

2011-11-14T10:01:00.000-08:00

I gave the freedom, but it came back and bit me.

Now I'm confused and betrayed.

Protective shields up.

2011-11-14T06:35:00.000-08:00

Finally submitted my GEK essay, my portfolio and my 1000 words reflection today! 3 things off my list finall,plus my portfolio is being sent for printing already too! :)

Sent my portfolio for printing today, thanks Josiah and the rest who make the effort to go down and help the whole studio to do it. Hmm, it also marks the end of my semester 1 design module and the last official day in studio 3 because we are going to change studio in the next sem.

Just want to say that although I'm not always in studio because I prefer doing my work at home while most of you were always there (and always using my empty table, lol just kidding!), I really treasure all the friendships that we have made and hope it will last us for a long while. :)

As I was writing my reflection this morning, it came as a breeze to me as I was writing exactly what my heart was thinking. Its all from the bottom of my heart and no story - making. I thought about the times we visited all our sites together, developing photos, solving problems for each other, although most of the time people are solving problems for me as I'm quite a clumsy person who is not very good with things that are hands on.

And my tutor Mr Sanson who always dedicated to come over and help us in all the little things possible and telling us all his truthful comments and giving valuable suggestions, which are often a challenge too for us to develop and to achieve.

Im simple terms, I love studio 3 2011 sem 1!

This is all for you people :)

Qingran, runxiao, theresa, huang, yuen man, shile, zhangyue, shaun, eugene, josiah, keith, johan, sanson

2011-11-13T03:06:00.000-08:00

Recently, Sunday became one of the more joyful day of the week because I'm tasting the sweetness of my hard work. :)

Because Sunday is the day that I give tuition and they are gradually showing results. One of them got first in class and another actually improved from 30+ to a passing grade. Upon hearing and seeing the act of them breaking the news in me, my heart actually feel very warm and fuzzy.

Touched that I actually made a little impact in their young hearts, albeit small but that's enough for me especially for the latter girl. Especially when I've experienced the joy of improving from a failing grade to one that is decent before. Its a slight improvement, but the magnitude of encouragement that it brought is indescribable unless you have experienced it yourself. Sometimes when I talked to the girls I can't help smiling genuinely from my heart due to their innocence and obsession over things that we were once crazy about such as pets and teenage magazines.

Anyway, just printed out my GEK1016 essay which I've worked on for quite and ew weeks and consolidated last night. Sense of satisfaction!! Gonna work on my Indesign now and my reflection. Lots of areas for improvement!

Thought through and decided that I must really work hard. Determined no matter whats the ending!

2011-11-11T05:10:00.000-08:00

Finally had the chance to relax abit with guojun today ^^

Went to vivo and caught a movie together, ' The apple of my eye'

Its really funny and brought back a lot of memories haha, hada really great time.

Meanwhile gotta continue rushing all the deadlines n stuff. Needa work like a machine and I'll remove my emotions if I can so that I won't procastinate and get distracted by other things haha.

I miss you baby <3

Anw photo of baby dunking few yrs ago.. hehe <3

just love him :p

2011-11-09T03:35:00.000-08:00

Not everything can be rewind